Akira is looking for her because Same Hat. He isn't in Ryo's coat anymore, he's BACK IN BLACK. He comes in and when he spots her, he doesn't hesitate to wander over.]
[hey what's up she's just GOING HAM on this punching bag. she's just really beating the shit out of it, and she ignores him entirely when he wanders up.
thankfully gideon is stupid and didn't suspect him at all today like i, flurry, did, so at least there's that.]
[Maybe he was complicit through knowing, maybe you're valid.
He walks around behind the other side of the punching bag. His face is a bit red, and it looks like he wants to cry, but there aren't any tears still. He puts both hands on the back of the punching bag out of the way to kind of support it while she punches so it doesn't wildly swing around.]
[she doesn't have like. the words, to do this, the horrible twisting vine feeling in her chest is just A Lot, and getting it out of her is impossible. she's never been able to do this. in the ninth, you swallow everything down. on the ninth, you make yourself out of iron because anything else gets scrubbed across the floorboards.
she's been sad most of her life, but that was easy to ignore, because it was just her. it's worse, she thinks, to have people who care, and have that pulled out from under you.
He finally glances around the bag to figure out what--oh. He frowns, then comes out. He moves over to sit down beside her, and he's not sure if she's in the mood for a hug, so he doesn't try to give her one right now.]
[she kind of just... dully aches, about that. like she's all scraped out with a spoon. and after a second, she just drapes over him again, like she did earlier during trial.]
[Well, that's WORSE, thanks. This is a hell he doesn't want.]
I know.
[He pats her arm. But it doesn't feel like it's enough. So, finally, he twists enough to give her a hug.]
Keep going, okay? Don't give up no matter what happens. Keep drinking--for practice. When we get there, we'll put him on the ground. Then we can decide.
...Harrowhark told me... to decide a path once I get the victory. So we should do that. We should try to win.
[you know how in snowblind you had emily with her green actions and her red actions. that's what is happening to gideon in this game]
You know. [she starts, with a little sigh.] Itto said earlier that he was just going to go find the people that got double dead and bust them out. Like it wasn't even a question of whether he could or not, just that he was going to.
I don't talk to the demons, so I don't know anything about the party or whatever we're supposed to be doing here. Far as I can see we go until we don't. If we get to the point where we have any leverage at all, hopefully I'll be alive and remember.
[His smile is weak, but it's a smile. Brief. He nods.]
I don't know too much about the party either. They wouldn't really say... about what Satan was interested in, or what the party would be like. I think... Chandra said none of them had ever been to Satan's party before. A little weird, I guess.
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Akira is looking for her because Same Hat. He isn't in Ryo's coat anymore, he's BACK IN BLACK. He comes in and when he spots her, he doesn't hesitate to wander over.]
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thankfully gideon is stupid and didn't suspect him at all today like i, flurry, did, so at least there's that.]
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He walks around behind the other side of the punching bag. His face is a bit red, and it looks like he wants to cry, but there aren't any tears still. He puts both hands on the back of the punching bag out of the way to kind of support it while she punches so it doesn't wildly swing around.]
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her knuckles are all fucked up - she's not doing this properly. maybe on purpose.]
Stop. Move. [she says, hoarsely.]
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You can keep going, I can hold it. I'll be okay.
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she's been sad most of her life, but that was easy to ignore, because it was just her. it's worse, she thinks, to have people who care, and have that pulled out from under you.
she just moves back, and away, and sits down.]
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He finally glances around the bag to figure out what--oh. He frowns, then comes out. He moves over to sit down beside her, and he's not sure if she's in the mood for a hug, so he doesn't try to give her one right now.]
It sucks.
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It's garbage. He didn't even mean to do it.
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[He watches her a moment. Really about to crumble five seconds in for the hugging. His eyes sting! His throat tightens! WHERE ARE THE TEARS?!]
...I tried not to say anything. When I realized. But I don't know what we would have done if we didn't find out.
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Voted for me, maybe. [she says, bitterly.] Or someone else on that list.
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They probably would have voted for Ryo... Since he wasn't letting them check him.
[He reaches up to gently put a hand on her arm.]
Did you go see him?
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Of course I did. Did you?
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Yeah, I did. I don't know if it helped, but... I won't take saying goodbye for granted.
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she just closes her eyes.]
I don't want to. [say goodbye, she means.]
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Me either.
[He's just some dude who got possessed by a demon. He doesn't have any inspiring words, or even any comforting ones.]
It never gets easier. Sorry.
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[she's lost enough people, it's not new, but.]
It won't be the last, either.
[she kind of just... dully aches, about that. like she's all scraped out with a spoon. and after a second, she just drapes over him again, like she did earlier during trial.]
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I know.
[He pats her arm. But it doesn't feel like it's enough. So, finally, he twists enough to give her a hug.]
Keep going, okay? Don't give up no matter what happens. Keep drinking--for practice. When we get there, we'll put him on the ground. Then we can decide.
...Harrowhark told me... to decide a path once I get the victory. So we should do that. We should try to win.
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Okay. [she says, simply, at first, because - that's how she feels, too. she can't give up. she never has before.] Okay.
[maybe he doesn't think he's good at inspiring speeches or whatever, but this works. it works well enough.]
I'll keep you going, too.
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[He gives her a squeeze then pats her shoulders reassuringly.
Don’t listen to Harrow or anyone else, please learn emotional release and platonic physical affection like hugging.]
If something happens, it doesn’t mean we didn’t try hard enough. At least we tried.
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You know. [she starts, with a little sigh.] Itto said earlier that he was just going to go find the people that got double dead and bust them out. Like it wasn't even a question of whether he could or not, just that he was going to.
I really ought to be that level of thick.
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He pulls back so he can look at her, brows furrowing doubtfully.] I... don't know. Maybe they are somewhere. [Frowning gently.]
The demons said there were other departments. It might not mean anything about... the ones who are gone. Maybe they're gone for good.
But... the people who win. You might can ask to change that.
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I don't talk to the demons, so I don't know anything about the party or whatever we're supposed to be doing here. Far as I can see we go until we don't. If we get to the point where we have any leverage at all, hopefully I'll be alive and remember.
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I don't know too much about the party either. They wouldn't really say... about what Satan was interested in, or what the party would be like. I think... Chandra said none of them had ever been to Satan's party before. A little weird, I guess.
But we'll keep going.