[Well, he did not expect nor want to witness any of that on this day. The way it actually keeps looping, too.
He looks visibly stunned. A swell of emotion rolls up in him; as expected, water starts brimming in his eyes. Why is he being shown this? Why? Nevermind how terrible it is for Chandra to be here to see it.] Stop it, [he whispers.
Like the Akira on screen, he slowly raises his hands to clutch his head.] Stop it. [A little louder, a little more desperate.
going to edge away from akira in case akira starts getting violent while having a breakdown. there is basically nothing he could say to help calm down akira that wouldn't be horribly ooc of him, so once again he won't even try. i'm so sorry akira. anna why did you have to give chandra the sad memory.
but maybe akira's yelling does some good, since eventually the screen starts to flicker, as though it's getting ready to show something else.]
[Very sorry to Jan for our self-fulfilling prophecy happening which I joked about.
Because while Chandra is a bastard, so is Ryo. Akira is used to bastard despite it sometimes making him angry. While Chandra is a bastard, there is a single thing Akira can respect more than anything else: the fact Chandra had plans to stay and protect it until the end.
Hey! At least he isn't becoming unhinged anymore!]
Chandra is now his bestie (no). But he understands the staying. The body parts on the pikes--they feel so long ago for him even if the wound stings fresh. Maybe the only good thing is Chandra will ignore croaking voice and the tears.]
I get it... But the humans... even when I stayed to stop Ryo...
[yeah, chandra is ignoring the crying. not like he knows how to handle any of that anyway!
but with the broken way akira is speaking, he could be referring to any number of things, so chandra waits to see if he's going to finish that sentence or dissolve further into tears.]
Well, for one, that isn't what I said. Don't put words in my mouth. What I meant was that nothing changes simply because you happen to have feelings about it.
[all that matters in the end is action.]
In any case, coming back from the dead isn't synonymous with altering the past in the first place. Death can be undone without changing the fact that it happened.
That's not true... [Only because unfortunately Chandra is talking to the most Feelings person.] Having feelings means you won't make the same mistake made the first time!
[Because there will be shame, or guilt, or regret. Because love means there's sorrow.]
Being alive when you should be dead means you're already changing the past.
You are being deliberately obtuse as to what I mean, so never mind.
[he sighs.]
You're applying the limits of your world to others again. Coming back from the dead may be unusual where you're from, but you'll likely find many universes that don't consider it as extreme as you do.
Stop arguing with me as if what I went through was nothing just because it doesn't line up with some other world! [he snarls, and it probably would have been more demonic if they weren't here.] I don't care if it doesn't work that way for everyone!
That's how it'd work for me. My world is gone, and bringing it back means being alive again and changing the past!
Do you have confirmation from Satan and the demons that that's how the revival would work, or are you merely hoping?
If you do, lead with that, and you can consider what I said about undoing death moot. If you don't, make sure to find out—that was my point. Rather than simply regret, figure out what assumptions are or aren't true, and take actual action.
[he takes out his phone, thinking about how he should stop trying to offer advice if it ends up like this. "is it because he has shitty people skills" mayhaps but unfortunately he's not going to change]
You're the only one trying to take my words as some sort of denouncement of your situation.
Yes, they're largely useless, and anything they say should be taken with a grain of salt. A direct answer would, if anything, be even more suspicious.
Still, there can be some value in seeing how they respond to things, especially if your plan already amounts to discussing it with Satan. [a beat] I don't believe in giving people false hope, so normally I'd leave it at this, but given that you're likely the kind of person who intends on running on it anyway—
[he finally stops texting! he doesn't get off the phone, though, instead turning it to show akira a string of texts.
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However you wish to factor this in, if at all, is up to you.
[Yes. He is very stupid and emotional, thank you for understanding, Chandra.
He glances skeptically down at the phone when it's turned to him, not moving for a moment. Wary. And then, finally, he comes a little closer so he can read the screen.
He frowns at the words. The fact Chandra asked at all on his behalf, Akira won't Forget, sorry. But anyway.]
It isn't... [...] It isn't I didn't know if I could. I mean, I... didn't know for sure. If time could be changed. But it's not... about changing time now.
It's about how it'll always happen no matter what. The end. If Ryo and I go back. It'll always happen.
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He looks visibly stunned. A swell of emotion rolls up in him; as expected, water starts brimming in his eyes. Why is he being shown this? Why? Nevermind how terrible it is for Chandra to be here to see it.] Stop it, [he whispers.
Like the Akira on screen, he slowly raises his hands to clutch his head.] Stop it. [A little louder, a little more desperate.
Then he screams:] Stop it!
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going to edge away from akira in case akira starts getting violent while having a breakdown. there is basically nothing he could say to help calm down akira that wouldn't be horribly ooc of him, so once again he won't even try. i'm so sorry akira. anna why did you have to give chandra the sad memory.
but maybe akira's yelling does some good, since eventually the screen starts to flicker, as though it's getting ready to show something else.]
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It might not be bad Chandra steps back; he looks wildly manic. But the flickering of the screen draws his attention to it, and he pauses.
He really thinks it's going to humiliate him again.]
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as for chandra, he simply watches in silence, his expression unreadable.]
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Because while Chandra is a bastard, so is Ryo. Akira is used to bastard despite it sometimes making him angry. While Chandra is a bastard, there is a single thing Akira can respect more than anything else: the fact Chandra had plans to stay and protect it until the end.
Hey! At least he isn't becoming unhinged anymore!]
You were going to stay.
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chandra gives him an even look.]
Anything less would only sentence the universe to a swifter death.
[that is part of what it means to be a god, after all.]
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Chandra is now his bestie (no). But he understands the staying. The body parts on the pikes--they feel so long ago for him even if the wound stings fresh. Maybe the only good thing is Chandra will ignore croaking voice and the tears.]
I get it... But the humans... even when I stayed to stop Ryo...
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but with the broken way akira is speaking, he could be referring to any number of things, so chandra waits to see if he's going to finish that sentence or dissolve further into tears.]
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But he's a boy who is full of a lot of emotion, so he's quivering with it, unsure of what his hands will do if he lowers them from his head.]
...Our world got destroyed anyway. We destroyed what was left of it.
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Such is reality. Effort doesn't always produce results, and the decisions one makes don't necessarily lead to good outcomes.
Minimizing damage in a fight is difficult even for the strongest beings.
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[Before his legs can give out, the hole essentially spits them once again into a place in hell with very little fuss.]
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but they're back out of the hole now, at least.]
Mourning what has already happened won't change the past.
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Then why are any of us bothering to go to a party if we don't think we can change the past?!
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Well, for one, that isn't what I said. Don't put words in my mouth. What I meant was that nothing changes simply because you happen to have feelings about it.
[all that matters in the end is action.]
In any case, coming back from the dead isn't synonymous with altering the past in the first place. Death can be undone without changing the fact that it happened.
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[Because there will be shame, or guilt, or regret. Because love means there's sorrow.]
Being alive when you should be dead means you're already changing the past.
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[he sighs.]
You're applying the limits of your world to others again. Coming back from the dead may be unusual where you're from, but you'll likely find many universes that don't consider it as extreme as you do.
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That's how it'd work for me. My world is gone, and bringing it back means being alive again and changing the past!
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Do you have confirmation from Satan and the demons that that's how the revival would work, or are you merely hoping?
If you do, lead with that, and you can consider what I said about undoing death moot. If you don't, make sure to find out—that was my point. Rather than simply regret, figure out what assumptions are or aren't true, and take actual action.
[he takes out his phone, thinking about how he should stop trying to offer advice if it ends up like this. "is it because he has shitty people skills" mayhaps but unfortunately he's not going to change]
You're the only one trying to take my words as some sort of denouncement of your situation.
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I'm not going back.
[Very resolutely and firmly.]
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Then what is your intention?
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[Which sounds terribly honest unfortunately.]
I'm going to ask Satan for something else if I make it.
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Have you discussed this with the demons?
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Why? They've never really bothered to help us. And how do I know when they're telling the truth?
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Yes, they're largely useless, and anything they say should be taken with a grain of salt. A direct answer would, if anything, be even more suspicious.
Still, there can be some value in seeing how they respond to things, especially if your plan already amounts to discussing it with Satan. [a beat] I don't believe in giving people false hope, so normally I'd leave it at this, but given that you're likely the kind of person who intends on running on it anyway—
[he finally stops texting! he doesn't get off the phone, though, instead turning it to show akira a string of texts.
However you wish to factor this in, if at all, is up to you.
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He glances skeptically down at the phone when it's turned to him, not moving for a moment. Wary. And then, finally, he comes a little closer so he can read the screen.
He frowns at the words. The fact Chandra asked at all on his behalf, Akira won't Forget, sorry. But anyway.]
It isn't... [...] It isn't I didn't know if I could. I mean, I... didn't know for sure. If time could be changed. But it's not... about changing time now.
It's about how it'll always happen no matter what. The end. If Ryo and I go back. It'll always happen.
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