[He frowns just slightly. He's frowning because he knows Gideon is waiting on him to say what she really wants to hear, and he's worried whatever answer he gives that isn't that will have him fail her.
Surprisingly, he's got a lot of hang-ups about failing people. Like SOMEONE else.]
I don't know... It depends on what we get, I guess. I thought about... I thought about going with Kaoru and Hikaru if that's something that even becomes possible. Because their world is a lot like the one I came from.
[At heart, he is still a teenager who had a mostly normie life up until being possessed. He longs for the normalcy of that life despite the idea he might never have it again.]
But--now I'm not sure. I don't think I fit into Lu Bixing's world. I don't think I would even fit in yours, Gid. And now, I'm not sure if I'd fit into theirs. I'm not really... expensive school kind of dude. And... I didn't think about the fact I probably won't age much, but Kaoru will get old, and I'll have to watch him die. I still have... to think about it.
I get, though. [Quickly.] How you feel. Ryo said he was gonna stay here, and... I don't want to leave him stuck here. So... I get it now.
[she's not waiting on anything, really - she just wants to hear what he's going to do. as long as it's something. as long as he tries to be happy, somewhere.]
You wouldn't fit in mine, and I don't know shit about Bixing's other than the fact that it isn't mine. [she says, still mild. going to bixing's world, for her, isn't even because it's him - it's because there's the most opportunity there for her, and for harrow.]
... It's not about me, man, quit bending yourself into weird shapes. All I want is you to be happy wherever you go. That's it.
There's always going to be bad shit, though. Every option has bad shit, there's no perfect solution.
[she doesn't like the idea of akira staying here, but it's not her decision. at least he knows why it upsets her, she'll take that.]
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I don’t know if I have a plan exactly… just maybe ideas to try which I’m not sure will work. [Wait.] You mean… after?
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Surprisingly, he's got a lot of hang-ups about failing people. Like SOMEONE else.]
I don't know... It depends on what we get, I guess. I thought about... I thought about going with Kaoru and Hikaru if that's something that even becomes possible. Because their world is a lot like the one I came from.
[At heart, he is still a teenager who had a mostly normie life up until being possessed. He longs for the normalcy of that life despite the idea he might never have it again.]
But--now I'm not sure. I don't think I fit into Lu Bixing's world. I don't think I would even fit in yours, Gid. And now, I'm not sure if I'd fit into theirs. I'm not really... expensive school kind of dude. And... I didn't think about the fact I probably won't age much, but Kaoru will get old, and I'll have to watch him die. I still have... to think about it.
I get, though. [Quickly.] How you feel. Ryo said he was gonna stay here, and... I don't want to leave him stuck here. So... I get it now.
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You wouldn't fit in mine, and I don't know shit about Bixing's other than the fact that it isn't mine. [she says, still mild. going to bixing's world, for her, isn't even because it's him - it's because there's the most opportunity there for her, and for harrow.]
... It's not about me, man, quit bending yourself into weird shapes. All I want is you to be happy wherever you go. That's it.
There's always going to be bad shit, though. Every option has bad shit, there's no perfect solution.
[she doesn't like the idea of akira staying here, but it's not her decision. at least he knows why it upsets her, she'll take that.]