[THIS IS SO TERRIBLE. However, he's been friends with Ryo for so long, so, like. Actually, this is about on par in a familiar way. Ryo is more cold about it usually, very funny.]
Sorry... It's not you, it's... [A sigh.] Just me. I'm trying to figure some stuff out that I've never really... had to do before.
I talked to Kaoru. [she hums.] And he said people try to take your choices from you without asking what you want. Like they're deciding what's best for you.
[This is so funny to him, like, even being dumb as bricks about things sometimes. He is very emotional. So he really wouldn't have any trouble considering them friends outside of like... not telling Ryo he had friends here because Ryo is unhinged, but nevermind that........]
We're friends.
It'll be okay, Gideon. Let's see how the party goes. They keep telling me that, the demons. I trust them. [Most of them.] So let's see what happens. It might not be as bad as you think. I can't decide until I know everything. [He searches her face.] You won't lose me.
[she knows it's easy for him - that's why she wants to tell him this, because it isn't for her. the fact that it feels natural to call him her friend means something more than she thinks he gets.
her lips twist a little at the end of what he says, but.]
Don't pat my ass about it. I don't want you to reassure me, I just want you to know you're important.
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Thanks, I know I suck.
[He isn't fazed by the bluntness, though. He does rub at his not bruised eye.]
I feel like shit.
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He moves over to put his arms around her. Hug.]
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Talk about it, if you need.
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I know we're in hell, but this week has been... hell. Is all.
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If I made it worse, sorry.
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He leans back a tad to look up at her.]
What...? No. No, you didn't.
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[this is such a terrible way to express concern but she is really worried about him i promise]
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Sorry... It's not you, it's... [A sigh.] Just me. I'm trying to figure some stuff out that I've never really... had to do before.
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Hate that I know how that feels. [she gets it.] Like what?
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Just... the same things. Ryo... Kaoru... The party. All of this.
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I talked to Kaoru. [she hums.] And he said people try to take your choices from you without asking what you want. Like they're deciding what's best for you.
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It feels like it sometimes, I guess.
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[but she imagines that's how it must've come off.]
Akira -- [she starts, and then stops. maybe a little frustrated.]
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[He watches her for a long moment, then when she stops, he says:]
Go ahead. It's okay.
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We're friends. [she says, looking at him.] Me and you. I can just say that. Like, easy, because I know it's true.
[she has literally never had a person in her life that she has known this with, before.]
So - so I want you to do what you want to do. [even if it makes her desperately sad to think she might never see him again.] Whatever it is.
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We're friends.
It'll be okay, Gideon. Let's see how the party goes. They keep telling me that, the demons. I trust them. [Most of them.] So let's see what happens. It might not be as bad as you think. I can't decide until I know everything. [He searches her face.] You won't lose me.
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her lips twist a little at the end of what he says, but.]
Don't pat my ass about it. I don't want you to reassure me, I just want you to know you're important.
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I'm glad I got to meet you, Gideon. Uh--this isn't goodbye. I just wanted to tell you. I think you're pretty amazing. You'd definitely be a Devilman.
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I'll take that as a compliment. [she says, vaguely amused.]
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It is. All the strengths of a demon, but you keep your heart.
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Like you, right?