[He doesn’t look quite as surprised as he does guilty. He reaches out to rub a hand in her arm reassuringly.]
Let’s see what happens at the party. I’m not saying it’s my final decision. Just one… I’ve been thinking a lot about. Being a demon here might not be so bad if I don’t have options. I could help other people like us maybe.
He frowns considerably at both her look and departure. He glances down, debating whether or not he should bother, not wanting to annoy her by hanging around, but feeling bad if he just lets it go.
He wonders if he’ll ever have his own autonomy wherever he’s at. If he’ll ever be able to make his own choices for himself.
[it's a good thing he follows her, because she's already coming back out. she's got hot chocolate, and when she sees him, she hands one of the cups to him.]
I don't want to miss you. [she says, quietly.] Is all.
I'm not saying you go home, I'm trying to take you anywhere else with me, fucknuts. [she says, annoyed. she goes to flop down on a sofa somewhere.] Whatever. It doesn't matter. Do what you're going to do.
[he might get the sense that she's embarrassed...]
[she takes a drink. if he drinks his it's absolutely spiked, also, so beware. not with a particular drink, just vodka, unless you want him to turn into a furry or something ig]
If we can go somewhere else, the plan is Bixing's world. [...] He said we could have a place to stay while we try to figure shit out.
Yeah. We talked about it. [she tilts her head back.] She wants to save the Ninth still. But if we go right back - you saw it. It'd be stupid to go right back to where we died, there's no way out.
She wants to save it because she spent seventeen fucking years being reminded every day of her life that she's responsible for two hundred dead kids, like she asked for that, Akira.
I want her to be happy. Don't make me sound like a bad guy for trying to remind her she's more than the Reverend Daughter.
I’m not saying that! [His voice pitches, but then he looks like he tries to level it back because he doesn’t wanna yell, not at her.] You’re not the bad guy.
[Both sides really, but a lot of Harrow’s side because he has unfortunately taken on the burden of humanity, and the world, and also carrying a certain someone else’s emotions like it’s somehow his job.]
[He puts his drink down near him so he can sit with her.]
He told me. I said I wasn't sure what everything would be like, or if I'd ever make it, but... I'd think about it. He said he wanted me to be okay even if he went back, but I...
[He frowns and looks away.]
I was an idiot, and I got upset about that too. Because I thought he was trying to keep me as a replacement in case the Akira he went back to died, too.
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[He doesn’t look quite as surprised as he does guilty. He reaches out to rub a hand in her arm reassuringly.]
Let’s see what happens at the party. I’m not saying it’s my final decision. Just one… I’ve been thinking a lot about. Being a demon here might not be so bad if I don’t have options. I could help other people like us maybe.
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she looks pissed, but she doesn't say anything else. she will, however, stand up and go back inside.]
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He frowns considerably at both her look and departure. He glances down, debating whether or not he should bother, not wanting to annoy her by hanging around, but feeling bad if he just lets it go.
He wonders if he’ll ever have his own autonomy wherever he’s at. If he’ll ever be able to make his own choices for himself.
He sighs, then goes in after her.]
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I don't want to miss you. [she says, quietly.] Is all.
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He looks at the hot chocolate, then at her.
???
He’ll take it, frowning wryly.]
Wouldn’t you miss me anyway if I went home?
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[he might get the sense that she's embarrassed...]
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He follows her over to the sofa; he is a flea she can’t get rid of.]
You’re taking me back to the First? No, the… Ninth?
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If we can go somewhere else, the plan is Bixing's world. [...] He said we could have a place to stay while we try to figure shit out.
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He will drink it, though, and kind of blink a bit at the spike. Not as bad as Midori’s though.]
You and Harrowhark are going…?
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Yeah… But how are you going to get back from Lu’s world? What if you get stuck there?
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Then we don't go back to the Ninth and don't get roped into dying there. Oh no. What a nightmare.
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Harrowhark said she wanted to save it.
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She wants to save it because she spent seventeen fucking years being reminded every day of her life that she's responsible for two hundred dead kids, like she asked for that, Akira.
I want her to be happy. Don't make me sound like a bad guy for trying to remind her she's more than the Reverend Daughter.
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I was just talking.
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exhales. slowly.]
It's. A touchy subject. [she says stiffly.]
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[Both sides really, but a lot of Harrow’s side because he has unfortunately taken on the burden of humanity, and the world, and also carrying a certain someone else’s emotions like it’s somehow his job.]
You talked to Ryo about this.
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I did, yeah. Before I knew the two of you were fighting or whatever. I don't want him to rot, either.
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[Softly, sincerely.]
He asked me if I would go to another world with someone else if it was possible.
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[a pause, and then she reaches out to grab at him. sit down with her.]
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He told me. I said I wasn't sure what everything would be like, or if I'd ever make it, but... I'd think about it. He said he wanted me to be okay even if he went back, but I...
[He frowns and looks away.]
I was an idiot, and I got upset about that too. Because I thought he was trying to keep me as a replacement in case the Akira he went back to died, too.
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It's not like I can blame you. I've got something like fifteen years of assuming the worst, too.
[lmao]
That's not the impression I got from him. I do think he's going about it like a fucking moron, though.
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Thank God I’m not the only one. I was starting to this I was. There are so many people here exactly like him, and I thought I was the one going crazy.
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He and Harrow are really similar. So no, you're not crazy.
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Right?
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