[the serious answer - that feels a little how she feels now. right now, she's got harrow. harrowhark is with her, for better or for worse, and if she changes that dynamic... she doesn't want to think about it. life without her getting to continue living was unthinkable enough that she threw herself on an iron spike to make sure.
she thinks about that stupid love potion, the one that didn't work, and rubs at her face.
and then akira gives her the not serious answer and she chokes on her own spit.]
He throws up his hands in surrender.] Hang on, it's not like that! [DON'T PULVERIZE HIM.]
It was at the party. Lavi drew one of those ten cards, and I couldn't find anyone fitting. I thought Kuranosuke was a girl, but I couldn't even find him then. So I picked Harrow.
[sometimes your sense of how to love people is real fucked up]
Yep. [...] I vaguely remember screaming. There's - you know when you can't exactly remember something, but you've got the sense of it still? I have that, but with my sword in my hands, and screaming.
[so not like... the most fun memory ever, but you know.]
[Hmm. He nods a little like his understands, and then he sort of just... looks thoughtfully off into the middle distance. The expression is definitely frowning.]
No... The last thing I remember... was lying on one of the last few rocks left on the planet we both destroyed while fighting, not being able to feel my lower half. Ryo was beside me. He was talking about... the stars, how the humans were gone, how... he didn't understand what I had meant, but... he sounded so far away.
He just rests the side of his head against hers tiredly. He's quiet for a long moment.]
I don't know. [The answer is earnest.] I don't know what the conditions are, so I don't know if I can move time back. And if I do... things will probably be the same. If Ryo is there.
So I was thinking I might try to get us to stay here. Maybe I can make a world just for the humans with no demons, no Devilman, no Ryo. Then we can stay here where we belong.
You don't belong in hell. [she says, first off, voice a touch sharp.] ... There has to be some sort of solution. Don't just say you're thinking about staying in hell. Shut up.
[HELP this is so funny. The way he barely starts and lifts his head to look at her like ????? because no one else he has said this to, not a single person, has told him he didn’t.]
I’m Devilman. [Like that explains it.] I don’t know if we can even stay here, maybe we’d have to make our own world, but I don’t think we can make our own world and also one for the humans.
Gideon... [He actually doesn't sound like he's trying.] You're right. It was, but... I'm not sure whether Ryo can change or not. He's not like me or you, or humans, or... even a demon exactly.
So I don't think he's going to agree with anything I want to try.
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she thinks about that stupid love potion, the one that didn't work, and rubs at her face.
and then akira gives her the not serious answer and she chokes on her own spit.]
-- Abso-fucking-lutely not.
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Gideon, come on. Don't let me be the only person who has kissed her. She wasn't even into it. I thought she was gonna claw my eyes out.
[Think of the shitty bar drink.]
Just ask if you can kiss her sometime when nothing is going on.
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[HOLD ON]
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He throws up his hands in surrender.] Hang on, it's not like that! [DON'T PULVERIZE HIM.]
It was at the party. Lavi drew one of those ten cards, and I couldn't find anyone fitting. I thought Kuranosuke was a girl, but I couldn't even find him then. So I picked Harrow.
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[... well, that's better, but. she looks vaguely disgruntled. everybody on the planet has kissed harrow before her. very funny.]
She can kiss whoever she wants, for the record. [yeah ok]
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...Including you, right? If you'd kiss her.
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If she wanted to.
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Think about it.
[He nudges her again.]
...And don't throw yourself onto anything pointy here, okay? Not even for her.
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I don't have a death wish. [this is not a promise, but like, hey. it's something.]
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(he would)
He glances forward.]
So that's the last thing you remember?
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Yep. [...] I vaguely remember screaming. There's - you know when you can't exactly remember something, but you've got the sense of it still? I have that, but with my sword in my hands, and screaming.
[so not like... the most fun memory ever, but you know.]
Was yours the last thing you remember?
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No... The last thing I remember... was lying on one of the last few rocks left on the planet we both destroyed while fighting, not being able to feel my lower half. Ryo was beside me. He was talking about... the stars, how the humans were gone, how... he didn't understand what I had meant, but... he sounded so far away.
And then it felt like I went to sleep.
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gideon shifts, and rests her chin on his shoulder again. it's comfortable this way, easy affection that she doesn't mind giving.]
At least it was sort of peaceful. [...] Do you want to go back? To life, I mean.
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He just rests the side of his head against hers tiredly. He's quiet for a long moment.]
I don't know. [The answer is earnest.] I don't know what the conditions are, so I don't know if I can move time back. And if I do... things will probably be the same. If Ryo is there.
So I was thinking I might try to get us to stay here. Maybe I can make a world just for the humans with no demons, no Devilman, no Ryo. Then we can stay here where we belong.
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You don't belong in hell. [she says, first off, voice a touch sharp.] ... There has to be some sort of solution. Don't just say you're thinking about staying in hell. Shut up.
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I’m Devilman. [Like that explains it.] I don’t know if we can even stay here, maybe we’d have to make our own world, but I don’t think we can make our own world and also one for the humans.
…
I don’t think Ryo would agree to split with me.
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Ryo should suck it the fuck up. [she says, annoyed.] I don't care what you are. It's not like you had a choice in it, it's Ryo's fucking fault.
[i'm bending timelines for this don't at me]
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Gideon... [He actually doesn't sound like he's trying.] You're right. It was, but... I'm not sure whether Ryo can change or not. He's not like me or you, or humans, or... even a demon exactly.
So I don't think he's going to agree with anything I want to try.
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I'm going to kick his ass.